I feel so... Friendless. But I have a lot of friends.?

I feel so friensless. Not that im the loner type, I have a lot of friends! People know me in school, but I feel friendless... Everybody thinks im the happy-go-luckh girl, but Im nog. Deep inside I feel so sad. Okay, i used to have a groul of friends, but i dont go to themmoften anymore because they gossip a lot!! And I go to another group i hate how theh talk about guys all day long!! Okay, i am popular in school A lot of people like me, but I DONT LIKE THEM. Is that okay? I do NOT like them! I dont show that to them because thats juat mean. I feel so friendless. People han out with me, but whenever I feel sad inside, nobod notices it, and when they do, they get VERY sarcastic. All of my school mates gossip and trash talk. I feel like im an outsider. The onl friend I really like is a guy, and umm hes prettu self consious because in my school, if you are always seen with a bky, they will think that you're dating him. And he doesnt really han out with me, he is just there for me. I really need help! Im not sure if my situation is okau or im just being a drama queen... I feel so friendless you know. But I have a lot of friends. I talk to them, but deep inside im disgused. It seens like everybody in my school only talks about dating, gossips, and trash talking.. Im a Freshman btw